Let’s be straight we either really want to know what’s going to happen or we straight don’t. Yeah there are some times where that simply doesn’t apply like getting exam results, or asking your crush to be your partner.
Along with/not wanting to know the outcome come the thoughts of “What if” and “should I”.
Right now, I know it is the right decision I could have made but I am feeling a little scared as to what may happen next. Another feeling is that I just don’t care anymore because I’ve been through quite enough to give another fuck as to what may happen to them.
What do I want?
I want people to stop telling me what they think should happen.
I want people to understand that although I have been very upset, sad, depressed and struggling for a long time, I still have feelings. Ask me, seriously. You would be surprised.
I want her to be punished, I want her to learn that what she did was wrong and it affected me in ways that she cannot see.
It has a longing effect; what you do to someone today will affect them in 5 years time no matter how small you think said event may be.
I want her to think back on her life and think about what made her do what she did, and work out what she can do to change things. Yes, you can’t go back in the past but the past doesn’t just go away. Feelings don’t go away. Unless you deal with them things will not improve.