Oh what a delight feeling numb is! For me it is just feeling nothing at all; I can look around and not feel an emotional connection to my surroundings.
That is probably the best I have ever explained that actually!
I think for the past few days/week I just haven't felt right, like flat almost. I have felt several emotions, like many. Some it feels at once.
But overall I just feel like I'm out of my mind, I'm not my normal self.
it feels like this is something that I feel every single winter but it probably isn't!
I think it started when I was 16, in 2016.
That was when I was in a very dark place, maybe its a depressive memory? Who knows!
One thing made me smile, a little, well maybe more than a little. I think it was a little a lot to be honest!
I'm actually in a Starbucks at the moment writing this post and on the table next to me was a little lad, he must have been like 1 or 2, and he just stared at me.
I did feel awkward and then I smiled, god knows why but it just made me smile and it got me out of this hole for that moment.
Smiling is good, laughing is great and I know this is temporary.