No one really understands. No one fucking does.
People tell me "Oh just move on", I FUCKING CAN'T. THIS IS UNBEARABLE!
I'm stuck in 2011/2012; year 5 and year 6 of primary school where it all went wrong.
I constantly see it all happening.
I feel it happening.
I know so much went wrong and I was innocent and I had no control.
I'm feeling bad right now. I've had thoughts this weekend of ending it all.
I want to be back there, but then I don't.
IT's SO FUCKING HARD AND CONFUSING, NO ONE FUCKING UNDERSTANDS.
I'm on my own, I just can't do this anymore.
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