Anger, it's a fucking horrible emotion (well it is to me). I'm trying to tell you how I feel when I feel angry but it's just so hard. I thnk it depends on what's going on that is making me angry.
I was talking with my counsellor on Wednesday last week week and we spoke about my childhood (lack thereof) and if I feel angry towards one/my parents at which I responded with that I do. I've been thinking all week what to put but I've been racking my head, however as the week went on I slowly added to this post.
I feel angry more at my mum, I think it's because she hurt me more. My dad worked so many hours to provide for us as a family, and I admire that so much. He said to me a little while back when I was at my parents that he felt bad in that he worked too many hours and wasn't there to help/support me.
I don't feel angry at him at all, yes there is an element of doubt but i'm sure I don't! The time we had with dad when we were younger was special.
I feel with my mum she loved me as a child, of course and never intentially set out to hurt me but she let me down; she could have done more when I was low, she knew me I was her son.
I'm angry that my mum didn't and doesn't listen to me.
I'm angry that my mum put herself first too many times.
I'm angry that my mum didn't recognise when I was starting to slip
I'm angry that my mum didn't move me out of CBA until it was too late.
I'm angry that my mum put her emotions before mine.
I'm angry that my mum made feeling anger, feel like a sin .
My mum failed me.