I'm never going to sink as low as I did today. I'm ashamed of myself.
I'm ashamed of myself that I spoke to a colleague like that, in that tone.
That I walked out.
I couldn't cope, I was about to burst. It was all getting too much.
I feel I'm out of control.
I feel I'm losing myself.
I feel I'm losing everything.
It's all building up and getting too much.
I contemplated taking my life, I thought about speeding up and crashing head on. I sped up, but I didn't do anything.
I'm going to talk to my boss tomorrow.
I feel I'm sinking in this well and I can't get out. I don't know what to do.
I feel I'm alone.
In some ways I feel I should be checked into a hospital.
Or is it too late?