I'm 20 years old, not a man by all means and I know I have a shit load of growing up to do, but I am capable of making my own decisions (bad ones included) .
My mum is a caring and loving woman yet she is self conscious and worries too much about what others think.
With the trauma I recently made her and my dad aware of, she is trying to fix things, trying to reconnect myself and my sister.
It is simply not her role or her business to try 'fix' things. Our siblingship is fucked, and because of my sister. I don't see a route through this and I'm not sure I want one either.
What she did was fucking vile and I don't even want to think about forgiving and moving on.
I'm going to feel, accept what I feel and not be ashamed of that.
My decisions are mine, and If I don't want to talk to my sister again so be it! that's my choice and mine only. No one can tell me differently.
I do however understand that there may be communal/family events where we will have to meet/see one another. As much as I do not want to see her, It would be selfish of me to make my parents/further family's life hard because of that. I spoke to my parents last night, well they just dictated to me and I argued back...Anyways point I'm trying to make is that I said my opinion and made my choice and was firm. I understood my parents opinions and thoughts but didn't let their thoughts change my mind/decision.
I'm proud of myself for being firm and standing by my decision.
A year ago, mayble less maybe more I would give in and admit defeat, I'm making progress.