As a child myself and my sister were taught to be truthful and own up to what we did. I didn’t stick to that sometimes but I was a kid, I clearly wanted to learn the hard way.
Throughout my life, since then I think I have been accountable. Say I have fucked up at work, I have came forward and admitted it with strength. Say I upset a friend, I apologised, I realised what I did. More recently when I went to the police after the events mentioned recently, I realised what would happen. She would be spoken to and then the police would deal with the next steps.
I knew that would be a shock and would easily be enough to throw someone off, but I did it and I admit that I have. I am not standing behind a wall.
But, always a but. Not everyone is accountable to their actions. Both offences of this nature lead to both criminals (seriously?!?) not admitting.
She said to my parents quote “”An allegation that Lewis has made against me. It relates to the things that took place when we were children. I have not been charged as this was a voluntary interview”
For a fucking start, hold the fuck up. Allegation.
You fucking knew what happened, you admitted it to my parents and gave a shitty ass reason. And now it didn’t fucking happen?
The definition of Allegation is “a claim or assertion that someone has done something illegal or wrong, typically one made without proof.”
Look, It happened. Hold your hands up, be accountable and move on.
And seriously, you had a solicitor? Why do you deserve one? So you can get away with what you did? So you won’t face charges?
Don’t fucking hide because you won’t win. I know what you did and I also know the affects of your actions, and I won’t hide.
I won’t make a police statement, I made that clear all along. I just wanted to report this, keep it on file. Do the right thing you know? Although the police have interviewed her and she either did/didn’t make an account it’s out of my hands. I said for them to interview her but refused to make a statement. I could have made a statement but I didn’t feel like I wanted to, I was scared, not weak but I felt submissive. I didn’t want to have your future fucked (because of what you did, hmmmmm….).
The policewoman who is investigating this said that as she has/hadn’t made an account and I won’t make a statement this will be put on file and it is my word against hers, however the case will be reviewed. From the way she was saying, it would be unlikely that charges would be made, yet this is out of my hands/control.
I mean, I would secretly be happy if charges would be made but I just don’t feel up to it.
I have had several plans to kill myself, I’ve self harmed, I’ve been a shitty dark place for years and it’s on you. Yeah I was bullied at CBA but if you didn’t do what you did, I may not have been so confused and fucked up, and I would have been able to get through it a lot easier.
But no, you put yourself first.
I’m not expecting you to ask to be prosecuted, I just want you to show that you are going to take a long hard look at yourself, go through therapy and tell them everything and come out of this a different person. The person you were won’t ever go away, it was and is you but be different and don’t expect me to be in your life, you had your chance.
Society isn’t accountable, always a route out a way to save face. Shame, much?