When the perpetrator expects you to be okay, after what they did albeit it 10 years ago certainly fucks you up.
For so long, I was so loving but now, I’m cold and emotionless (only to you, to note) but that’s not how it looks.
I know I need to tell people but how is another question.
Neighbours? Parents..Fuck I don’t know.
I was with her tonight, with some neighbours and it was soo nice. Like I had such a nice time! But I then kept being reminded of childhood times, pre and post. Even when she spoke, she irritated me.
Evenings like this seriously make me question whether I am going to get through this alive. I Just don’t know.
I can’t wait until she goes, I’m hoping I’ll be able to think straight.
On Saturday evening, I’m thinking of calling the contact “Emily” in my phone. I think that will help.
Until then.