A Facebook post I have drafted:
Post 5 year anniversary
Do I feel 100% comfortable writing this post? No.
Do I feel exposed by this post? Yes.
But do I feel ashamed by this? No
5 years ago I made a decision to stop moving forward in life, I was in a very dark place to say the least.
From that point, it’s been a struggle and will be a struggle no denying it.
5 years. Half a decade, a long time. I’ve learnt a hell of a lot, I’ve been through a lot and I’ve grown a lot and I know I’ve got to buckle up. I’m only 20.
I often look back at that moment seeing and feeling darkness almost frightening, a reminder of where I was then but not today.
5 years have gone by. I know I couldn’t have saw past that day let alone year and see today but a message I wish to have said to me at the time would be to breathe. Straight up, breathe and the moment will eventually pass. I’d also be a damn lot calmer too.